A Moment To Just Check In
11.2.7
Dear world,
It's been awhile since I've just written something simple to let everyone know how I'm doing. I mean...I've posted a few stories about specific occurrences...but nothing to just tell the big picture in terms of life, love, and the pursuit of happiness. Accordingly, I thought I'd take a moment to just check in with the internet.
Things are going well overall. For the most part my life has continued the upward trend that began the moment that Kris left.
My job, for example, while having its bad points, has kept us living at a comfortable level. I have the usual complaints that come with working for a corporation with less-than-progressive ideas, and I certainly wouldn't mind a pay raise, but what can you do? I have to remember, though, that no matter how oppressive and controlling the company gets...it's still the best job I've ever had. Needless to say, I'm keeping my options open.
My relationship with Autumn, however, has been much more satisfying overall. While we have run into some issues in the past, they are far behind us now. Recent days have seen us spending a lot more quality time together. Some of this is thanks to our growing love of movies and video games, while a huge part of it is due to our mutual desire to see the world. Quite frankly, there is no one on this Earth I'd rather take a roadtrip with.
In the apartment, Autumn's touches are apparent throughout. From the paintings, accessories, and decorations that she's incorporated, to the consistent mess in the bathroom...it's obvious that a woman lives in this home.
I've even become less selfish about sharing my home with someone. In the past, I had fought tooth and nail against some of Kris' decorating ideas. Even when Autumn moved in, I tended to try and keep our belongings separated to some extent. As time went on, though, I found myself allowing her to decorate in manners I normally never would have. While I simply ignore some of these accents, others (like our modern beige bedroom set) have actually grown on me. Our things have also started to mix together. Recently, I've even been considering the possibility of combining our CD collections.
It's unclear to me whether all of this is due to growth on my part, or if it simply indicates that Autumn has much better taste than Kris did. I like to think of it as a combination of the two.
What I do know for sure is that I love her, and given a couple more years together...I'm fairly certain we'll end up getting married one day. If not, at least I'll be able to link back to this for irony's sake...
Finally, I believe her and I have finally begun to strike a balance between our relationship and my dreams and goals. In the past, she had taken issue with the time I spent working on this site or other projects. I was spending an exorbitant amount of time on them, to be sure, but these things are important to me.
I may never be able to make anything of this crappy little site, but I sure would love to, and I'm sure as hell always going to try. These days, I do spend more time with Autumn, but she is in turn more understanding of my creative time. This has eased a lot of stress for me, and helped me get back into the swing of regular updating. I even have a few big projects coming up for the site that I'm excited about. Soon, I'll be releasing my first full-length movie, and then I'll be working on my first novel. (Shameless plug: You'll be able to find both of those things and more, right here on cutaia.net...just as soon as they're complete.)
In any case, I'm very excited about all of these things. As life keeps coming together for me, I'm continually reminded that the last few years have been the best time of my life. Here's hoping that it stays that way...
Regards,
(cutaia)
P.S. I promise I won't write again until something interesting happens.
