Stream Of Consciousness
3.13.7
Well...shit.
It's been almost two months since I've done a single damn thing to this site. It seems that every now and then I end up coming to that type of realization. It's becoming a bad habit of mine. Immediately, I start promising myself that I'll start updating regularly, and that this kind of uncalled for hiatus will never happen again. But then it does happen again. And it's been happening more regularly each year.
If only I weren't such a perfectionist.
Part of the problem is the fact that I'm so hard on everything I do. Every entry I write...every song I record...everything I do, in fact, must endure revision after revision in my never-ending quest to create something I don't completely hate. Even that sentence. After I wrote it I went back three separate times to make changes. A few commas turned into the dot-dot-dots I love so much. The word "completely" forced itself in between the words "don't" and "hate." I even debated for a moment over whether or not the dash in "never-ending" was really necessary.
...well, I've decided to keep it anyway.
I've always known that I display several signs of OCD. It's not something that controls my life by any means (I've never washed until I bled, or been late because I had to touch each light switch in the house exactly 17 times), but it can certainly be a bit of an inconvenience sometimes.
Optimally, I need to learn to work in the stream of consciousness. I mean...I already do to an extent. The ideas I have seem to just happen. It's just all those little bullshit minutiae that I get bogged down in.
At least I can pretend to have a reason for abandoning cutaia.net this time around. Recently, I've been hard at work on two side projects:
The first project is a website dedicated to The Great American Roadtrip. Travel by car has always been a passion of mine, so I figured it was time for me to turn that passion into something constructive. Unfortunately, it's turning into a massive undertaking, as I've never worked on a website of this size before. Just getting the structure and layout ready for content is proving to be a huge headache.
The second project is something else I've been thinking about for a long time now. I'm not ready to reveal any details about it yet, because a couple deals are still being ironed out, but in the coming weeks everything will be announced here: Everything's OK
Goddamnit, this is the most boring thing I've ever written.
Fuck it. Cut . Print.
